Guilt May Swarm You

Guilt swarmed you. How suffocating. I’m sorry.

Your own feelings, beliefs, actions. My feelings, beliefs and actions. And mixed between love and convince and joy and sadness and so many other emotions, weaved together was your guilt and mine.

Guilt is the fear of punishment. It is destructive and it breads destruction.

My fear has bread more fear. Your fear has bred more fear. Fear of not having what we need to live. What we think we need to live.

A fear of death in all facets. To fear death is death while living.

How at the core of all these actions to live are we really choosing death?

Pain exists. People have made choices that cause pain. Misuse of good. What’s done cannot be changed.

But all of those moments were lacking one thing: love.

Guilt represents death, as love represents life. And love can abolish guilt and bring back to life.

Once we look at ourselves, all humans, clearly, we can see that we are innately born pure. Once we recognize we were born bred love. Anything in between is pain, misguided pain. Improper skills which can be renewed or learned. To let the love shine and the pain disappear. And with that, we let go of the guilt. Being freed from guilt renewed life.

If we choose it. If we feel brave enough and determined enough to choose it. And if we don’t, we can understand that too. Bravery feels like fear in the moment. That’s what they meant when they said it’s difficult to face our fears.

It’s not the denial of them. It’s the acceptance of them. On repeat. It's knowing our fears so deeply they become our best friend, sitting besides us at all times. And we know they aren't going anywhere.

While your actions may pain me for longer than we both desire, I will always hold forgiveness because I know you did your best with what you had at that time. While my actions may pain me longer than we both desire, I will always hold forgiveness for myself because I know I did my best. I know we are all pure souls and can only return to that with love.

I hope that forgiveness relieves the guilt. You will always have my forgiveness. You will always have my love.

And I hope you are restored and filled again with love from the inside out. And then get to live for yourself and then for others.