Look Up To The Light

When we see darkness, we are not meant to look down on it but instead we must look up to the light.

Light is our conscious awareness - the part of us that sees, knows, and experiences everything. It's the witness behind the mind. This is our freedom to hear ourselves and act in alignment with our deepest truth. In spiritual terms, that's the soul or pure consciousness.

Our darkness is our pain through shame, trauma, limiting beliefs, emotional reactions, fears. It isn't who we are but rather what we're experiencing.

Turning to the light doesn't mean denying the dark. It means letting your awareness become bigger than what you're feeling.

We have to see it. Witness it.

When we witness our fear without becoming it, when we hold space for grief without letting it close us off, we begin to realize we are not the pain. We are the ones holding it. To be holding it, witness it, that is light itself.

From there we learn what the moment has to teach us and begin to alchemize the energy - not by fighting the dark but by staying open enough to let it move through.

We have to learn to release it, a lifelong practice with many layers.

Below is a passage from Michael A. Singers, The Untethered Soul, he describes this concept that profoundly changes the way we handle our own inner darkness (pain, grief, shame, limiting beliefs) or that of others. It's worth coming back to time and time again.

Singer points us to radically letting go of negativity. This does not mean we avoid accountability. We don't let go so we can forget we've we done. We let go so we can face our impact with clarity. True freedom is not about escaping consequences, but about meeting life with acceptance for all of the elements.

We must not suppress our darkness but instead witness it and remember: we see the darkness but we are not trapped in it. By turning to the light, we trust something deeper: our inner clarity. We loosen the grip of darkness and allow it to pass.

The Untethered Soul - Michael A. Singer :

That is how negative cycles happen. You actually take a piece of your stuff, which is nothing but deeply seated disturbance from your past, and you implant it in the hearts of those around you. At some point it will come back to you. Anything you put out comes back. Imagine if you got upset and fully released your disturbed energies onto another person. This is how people ruin relationships and destroy their lives.

How far down can you go? Once you’re weakened, another blockage could get hit, and yet another. You can fall all the way down until your life is an absolute mess. You can reach a point of total loss of control and completely lose your center. In this state, your previous seat of clarity may drift by once in a while, but you can’t hold it. Now you’re lost. Do you doubt that a single blockage getting hit in your heart could cause a fall that lasts a lifetime? It has been known to happen.

What if all you had to do to avoid all of this was to let go in the beginning? If you had, you would have gone up instead of down. That’s how it works. When a blockage gets hit, it’s a good thing. It’s time to open up internally and release the blocked energy. If you let go, and permit the purification process to take place inside, that blocked energy will be released. When it’s released and allowed to flow up, it becomes purified and merges back into your center of consciousness. This energy then strengthens you instead of weakening you. You begin to go up and up, higher and higher, and you learn the secret of the ascent. The secret of the ascent is to never look down—always look up.

No matter what happens below you, just turn your eyes upward and relax your heart. You do not have to leave the seat of Self in order to deal with the darkness. It will purify itself if you let it. Getting involved in the darkness does not dispel darkness; it feeds it. Don’t even turn toward it. If you see disturbed energies within you, it’s okay. Don’t think that you don’t have blockages left to release. Just sit in the seat of awareness and never leave. No matter what goes on below you, open your heart, open your heart and let it go. Your heart will become purified, and you will never know another fall.

If you fall along the way, just get up and forget it. Use the lesson to strengthen your resolve.

Let go right then. Do not rationalize, blame, or try to figure it out. Don’t do anything. Just let go immediately, and allow the energy to go back to the highest center of consciousness it can achieve. If you feel shame, let it go. If you feel fear, let it go. All of these are the remnants of the blocked energy that is finally being purified.

Always let go as soon as you’re aware that you didn’t. Don’t waste your time: use the energy to go up. You are a great being who has been given a tremendous opportunity to explore beyond yourself. The whole process is very exciting, and you will have good times and bad times. All sorts of things will happen. That’s the fun of the journey.

So don’t fall. Let go. No matter what it is, let it go. The bigger it is, the higher the reward of letting go and the worse the fall if you don’t. It’s pretty black-and-white. You either let go or you don’t. There really isn’t anything in between. So let all of your blockages and disturbances become the fuel for the journey. That which is holding you down can become a powerful force that raises you up. You just have to be willing to take the ascent.

I've returned to this numerous times. But each time these words echo just as loud:

If we rush to the light, missing the awareness of our impact, the light will ultimately be suffocated, again and again.

Light can only live in complete truth. If we deny the roots of our harm for our own comfort, we are still not moving in light and it will not stay.

Let a clear view of the darkness that caused harm become the fuel of your responsibility to move to the light.

Letting go is not about escaping pain - it's about creating enough space to actually feel the weight of what we've done in darkness and to choose in light next time.

We don't turn to the light to forget. We turn to the light to become someone who wouldn't do it again.