Slowing Down

What reverberates within me from this work is finding myself slowing down and being alone more often. 

It’s exhausting.

First, I must acknowledge and accept the value of slowing down. 

Then, I must learn how to do it. Feel it. Release the shame. 

Man, it’s so much shame and feelings of failure from slowing down. But I try to remind myself that’s just a construct. I am not a failure to rest. It’s what I need to learn and grow. 

To dig deep.

To get to know myself.

To develop my true intuition.

To learn what I love.

To learn what I desire for myself.

To enjoy my own company. 

Slowing down and being alone more often. To expand.

It’s exhausting.

But yet I crave it.